A broken body isn't a broken person - Janine Shepherd
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life is about opportunities creating
life is about opportunities creating
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them and embracing them and for me that
them and embracing them and for me that
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was the Olympic dream that's what
was the Olympic dream that's what
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defined me that was my bliss as a
defined me that was my bliss as a
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cross-country skier and member of the
cross-country skier and member of the
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Australian ski team headed towards the
Australian ski team headed towards the
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winter olympics I was on a training bike
winter olympics I was on a training bike
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ride with my fellow teammates as we made
ride with my fellow teammates as we made
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our way up towards the spectacular blue
our way up towards the spectacular blue
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mountains west of Sydney it was the
mountains west of Sydney it was the
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perfect autumn day sunshine the smell of
perfect autumn day sunshine the smell of
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you clipped and a dream life was good
you clipped and a dream life was good
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we'd been on our bikes around five and a
we'd been on our bikes around five and a
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half hours when we got to the part of
half hours when we got to the part of
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the ride that I loved and that was the
the ride that I loved and that was the
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hills because I loved the hills and I
hills because I loved the hills and I
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got up off the seat of my bike and I
got up off the seat of my bike and I
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started pumping my legs and as I sucked
started pumping my legs and as I sucked
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in the cold mountain air I could feel it
in the cold mountain air I could feel it
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burning my lungs and I looked up to see
burning my lungs and I looked up to see
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the sun shining in my face and then
the sun shining in my face and then
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everything went black where was I what
everything went black where was I what
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was happening my body was consumed by
was happening my body was consumed by
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pain I'd been hit by a speeding utility
pain I'd been hit by a speeding utility
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truck with only ten minutes to go on the
truck with only ten minutes to go on the
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bike ride I was airlifted from the scene
bike ride I was airlifted from the scene
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of the accident by a rescue helicopter
of the accident by a rescue helicopter
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to a large spinal unit in Sydney I had
to a large spinal unit in Sydney I had
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extensive and life-threatening injuries
extensive and life-threatening injuries
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I broken my neck and my back in six
I broken my neck and my back in six
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places I broke five ribs on my left side
places I broke five ribs on my left side
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i broke my right arm I broke my
i broke my right arm I broke my
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collarbone I broke some bones in my feet
collarbone I broke some bones in my feet
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my whole right side was ripped open
my whole right side was ripped open
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filled with gravel my head was cut open
filled with gravel my head was cut open
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across the front lifted back exposing
across the front lifted back exposing
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the skull underneath I had head injuries
the skull underneath I had head injuries
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I had internal injuries I had massive
I had internal injuries I had massive
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blood loss in fact I lost about 5 liters
blood loss in fact I lost about 5 liters
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of blood which is also when my size
of blood which is also when my size
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would actually hold by the time the
would actually hold by the time the
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helicopter arrived at Prince Henry
helicopter arrived at Prince Henry
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hospital in Sydney my blood pressure was
hospital in Sydney my blood pressure was
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40 over nothing I was having a really
40 over nothing I was having a really
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for over ten days I drifted between two
for over ten days I drifted between two
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dimensions I had an awareness of being
dimensions I had an awareness of being
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in my body but also being out of my body
in my body but also being out of my body
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somewhere else watching from above as if
somewhere else watching from above as if
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it was happening to someone else why
it was happening to someone else why
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would I want to go back to a body that
would I want to go back to a body that
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was so broken but this voice kept
was so broken but this voice kept
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calling me come on stay with me no it's
calling me come on stay with me no it's
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too hard come on this is our opportunity
too hard come on this is our opportunity
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know that body is broken it can no
know that body is broken it can no
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longer serve me come on stay with me we
longer serve me come on stay with me we
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can do it we can do it together I was at
can do it we can do it together I was at
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a crossroads I knew if I didn't return
a crossroads I knew if I didn't return
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to my body I'd have to leave this world
to my body I'd have to leave this world
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forever it was the fight of my life
forever it was the fight of my life
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after 10 days I made the decision to
after 10 days I made the decision to
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return to my body and the internal
return to my body and the internal
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bleeding stopped the next concern was
bleeding stopped the next concern was
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whether I would walk again because I was
whether I would walk again because I was
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paralyzed from the waist down they said
paralyzed from the waist down they said
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to my parents the neck break was a
to my parents the neck break was a
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stable fracture but the back was
stable fracture but the back was
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completely crashed the vertebrae at l1
completely crashed the vertebrae at l1
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was like you dropped a peanut stepped it
was like you dropped a peanut stepped it
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stepped on it smashed it into thousands
stepped on it smashed it into thousands
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of pieces they'd have to operate they
of pieces they'd have to operate they
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went in they put me on a beanbag they
went in they put me on a beanbag they
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cut me literally cut me in half I have a
cut me literally cut me in half I have a
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scar that wraps around my entire body
scar that wraps around my entire body
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they picked as much broken bone as they
they picked as much broken bone as they
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could that had lodged in my spinal cord
could that had lodged in my spinal cord
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they took out two of my broken ribs and
they took out two of my broken ribs and
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they rebuilt my back he'll one they
they rebuilt my back he'll one they
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rebuilt it they took out another broken
rebuilt it they took out another broken
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rib they fused t12 l1 and l2 together
rib they fused t12 l1 and l2 together
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then they stitched me up they took an
then they stitched me up they took an
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entire hour to stitch me up I woke up in
entire hour to stitch me up I woke up in
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intensive care and the doctors were
intensive care and the doctors were
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really excited that the operation have
really excited that the operation have
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been a success because at that stage I
been a success because at that stage I
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had a little bit of movement in one of
had a little bit of movement in one of
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my big toes and I thought great because
my big toes and I thought great because
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I'm going to the Olympics
I'm going to the Olympics
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I had no idea it's a sort of thing that
I had no idea it's a sort of thing that
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happens to someone else not me surely
happens to someone else not me surely
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but then the doctor came over to me and
but then the doctor came over to me and
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she said Janine the operation was a
she said Janine the operation was a
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success and we've picked as much
success and we've picked as much
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Bernhard out of your spinal cord as we
Bernhard out of your spinal cord as we
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could but the damage is permanent their
could but the damage is permanent their
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central nervous system nerves there is
central nervous system nerves there is
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no cure you're what we call a partial
no cure you're what we call a partial
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paraplegic and you will have all of the
paraplegic and you will have all of the
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injuries that go along with that you
injuries that go along with that you
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have no feeling from the waist down and
have no feeling from the waist down and
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at most you might get ten or twenty
at most you might get ten or twenty
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percent return you'll have internal
percent return you'll have internal
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injuries for the rest of your life
injuries for the rest of your life
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you'll have to use a catheter for the
you'll have to use a catheter for the
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rest of your life and if you walk again
rest of your life and if you walk again
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it will be with calipers and a walking
it will be with calipers and a walking
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frame and then she said your name you'll
frame and then she said your name you'll
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have to rethink everything you do in
have to rethink everything you do in
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your life because you're never going to
your life because you're never going to
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be able to do the things you did before
be able to do the things you did before
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I tried to grasp but she was saying I
I tried to grasp but she was saying I
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was an athlete that's all I knew that's
was an athlete that's all I knew that's
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all I've done if I couldn't do that then
all I've done if I couldn't do that then
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what could I do and the question I asked
what could I do and the question I asked
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myself is if I couldn't do that then who
myself is if I couldn't do that then who
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was I they moved me from intensive care
was I they moved me from intensive care
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to acute spinal I was lying on a thin
to acute spinal I was lying on a thin
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hard spinal bed I had no movement in my
hard spinal bed I had no movement in my
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legs I had tight stockings on to protect
legs I had tight stockings on to protect
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from blood clots I had one arm in
from blood clots I had one arm in
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plaster one arm tied down by drips I had
plaster one arm tied down by drips I had
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a neck brace and sandbags on either side
a neck brace and sandbags on either side
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of my head and I saw my world through a
of my head and I saw my world through a
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mirror that was suspended above my head
mirror that was suspended above my head
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I shared the ward with five other people
I shared the ward with five other people
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and the amazing thing is that because we
and the amazing thing is that because we
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were all lying paralyzed in the spinal
were all lying paralyzed in the spinal
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Ward we didn't know what each other
Ward we didn't know what each other
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looked like how amazing is that how
looked like how amazing is that how
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often in life do you get to make
often in life do you get to make
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friendships judgment-free purely based
friendships judgment-free purely based
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on spirit and there were no superficial
on spirit and there were no superficial
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conversations as we shared our innermost
conversations as we shared our innermost
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thoughts our fears and our hopes for
thoughts our fears and our hopes for
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life after the spinal Ward I remember
life after the spinal Ward I remember
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one night one of the nurses came in
one night one of the nurses came in
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Jonathan with a whole lot of plastic
Jonathan with a whole lot of plastic
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straws he put a pile on top of each of
straws he put a pile on top of each of
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us and he said start through
us and he said start through
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together well it wasn't much else to do
together well it wasn't much else to do
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in the spine award so we did and when
in the spine award so we did and when
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we'd finished he went around silently
we'd finished he went around silently
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and he joined all of the straws up to
and he joined all of the straws up to
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looped around the whole ward and then he
looped around the whole ward and then he
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said okay everybody hold on to your
said okay everybody hold on to your
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straws and we did and he said right now
straws and we did and he said right now
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we're all connected and as we held on
we're all connected and as we held on
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and we breathed as one we knew we
and we breathed as one we knew we
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weren't on this journey alone and even
weren't on this journey alone and even
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lying paralyzed in the spinal Ward there
lying paralyzed in the spinal Ward there
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were moments of incredible depth and
were moments of incredible depth and
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richness of authenticity and connection
richness of authenticity and connection
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that I had never experienced before and
that I had never experienced before and
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each of us knew that when we left the
each of us knew that when we left the
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after six months it was time to go home
after six months it was time to go home
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I remember dad pushing me outside in my
I remember dad pushing me outside in my
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wheelchair wrapped in a plaster body
wheelchair wrapped in a plaster body
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cast and feeling the Sun on my face for
cast and feeling the Sun on my face for
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the first time I soaked it up and I
the first time I soaked it up and I
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thought how could I ever have taken this
thought how could I ever have taken this
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for granted I felt so incredibly
for granted I felt so incredibly
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grateful for my life but before I left
grateful for my life but before I left
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hospital the head nurse had said to me
hospital the head nurse had said to me
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Janine I want you to be ready because
Janine I want you to be ready because
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when you get home something's going to
when you get home something's going to
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happen and I said what and she said
happen and I said what and she said
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you're going to get depressed and I said
you're going to get depressed and I said
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not me not to name the machine which was
not me not to name the machine which was
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my nickname she said you are because see
my nickname she said you are because see
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it happens to everyone in the spinal
it happens to everyone in the spinal
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Ward that's normal you're in a
Ward that's normal you're in a
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wheelchair that's normal but you're
wheelchair that's normal but you're
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going to get home and realize how
going to get home and realize how
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different life is and I got home and
different life is and I got home and
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I realized sister Sam was right i did
I realized sister Sam was right i did
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get depressed I was in my wheelchair I
get depressed I was in my wheelchair I
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had no feeling from the waist down
had no feeling from the waist down
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attached to a catheter bottle I couldn't
attached to a catheter bottle I couldn't
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walk I've lost so much weight in
walk I've lost so much weight in
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hospital I now weighed about 80 pounds
hospital I now weighed about 80 pounds
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and I wanted to give up all I wanted to
and I wanted to give up all I wanted to
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do was put my running shoes on and run
do was put my running shoes on and run
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out the door I wanted my old life back i
out the door I wanted my old life back i
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wanted my body back and i can remember
wanted my body back and i can remember
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mum sitting on the end of my bed and
mum sitting on the end of my bed and
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saying I wonder if life will ever be
saying I wonder if life will ever be
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good again and I thought how could
good again and I thought how could
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because I've lost everything that I
because I've lost everything that I
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valued everything that I'd worked
valued everything that I'd worked
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towards gone and the question I asked
towards gone and the question I asked
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was why me why me and then I remembered
was why me why me and then I remembered
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my friends that were still in the spinal
my friends that were still in the spinal
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would particularly Maria Maria was in a
would particularly Maria Maria was in a
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car accident and she woke up on a 16th
car accident and she woke up on a 16th
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birthday to the news that she was a
birthday to the news that she was a
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complete quadriplegic had no movement
complete quadriplegic had no movement
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from the neck down had damage to her
from the neck down had damage to her
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vocal cords and she couldn't talk they
vocal cords and she couldn't talk they
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told me we're gonna move you next to her
told me we're gonna move you next to her
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because he think it will be good for her
because he think it will be good for her
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I was worried I didn't know how I'd
I was worried I didn't know how I'd
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react being next to her I knew it would
react being next to her I knew it would
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be challenging but it was actually a
be challenging but it was actually a
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blessing because Maria always smiled she
blessing because Maria always smiled she
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was always happy and even when she began
was always happy and even when she began
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to talk again albeit difficult to
to talk again albeit difficult to
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understand she never complained not once
understand she never complained not once
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and I wondered how had she ever found
and I wondered how had she ever found
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that level of acceptance and I realized
that level of acceptance and I realized
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that this wasn't just my life it was
that this wasn't just my life it was
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life itself I realized that this wasn't
life itself I realized that this wasn't
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just my pain it was everybody's pain and
just my pain it was everybody's pain and
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then I knew just like before that I had
then I knew just like before that I had
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a choice I could keep fighting this or I
a choice I could keep fighting this or I
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could let go and accept not only my body
could let go and accept not only my body
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but the circumstances of my life and
but the circumstances of my life and
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then I stopped asking why me and I
then I stopped asking why me and I
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started to ask why not me and then I
started to ask why not me and then I
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thought to myself maybe being at rock
thought to myself maybe being at rock
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bottom is actually the perfect place to
bottom is actually the perfect place to
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start I had never before thought of
start I had never before thought of
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myself as a creative person I was an
myself as a creative person I was an
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athlete my body was a machine but now I
athlete my body was a machine but now I
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was in about to embark on the most
was in about to embark on the most
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creative project that any of us could
creative project that any of us could
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ever do that of rebuilding a life and
ever do that of rebuilding a life and
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even though I had absolutely no idea
even though I had absolutely no idea
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what I was going to do in that
what I was going to do in that
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uncertainty came a sense of freedom I
uncertainty came a sense of freedom I
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was no longer tied to a set path I was
was no longer tied to a set path I was
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free to explore life's infinite
free to explore life's infinite
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possibilities and that realization was
possibilities and that realization was
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about to change my life sitting at home
about to change my life sitting at home
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in my wheelchair and my plaster body
in my wheelchair and my plaster body
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cast an aeroplane flew overhead and I
cast an aeroplane flew overhead and I
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looked up and I thought to myself that's
looked up and I thought to myself that's
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it if I can't walk then I might as well
it if I can't walk then I might as well
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fly I said mom I'm gonna learn how to
fly I said mom I'm gonna learn how to
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I said pass me the paid the Yellow Pages
I said pass me the paid the Yellow Pages
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he's passed me the phone book i rang up
he's passed me the phone book i rang up
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the flying school i made a booking so
the flying school i made a booking so
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they'd like to make a booking to come
they'd like to make a booking to come
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out for a flight they said you know when
out for a flight they said you know when
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do you want to come out i said well i
do you want to come out i said well i
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have to get a friend to drive me out cuz
have to get a friend to drive me out cuz
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i can't drive sort of can't walk either
i can't drive sort of can't walk either
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is that a problem i made a booking and
is that a problem i made a booking and
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weeks later my friend chris and my mom
weeks later my friend chris and my mom
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drove me up to the airport all 80 pounds
drove me up to the airport all 80 pounds
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of me covered in the plaster body cast
of me covered in the plaster body cast
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in a baggie pair of overalls i can tell
in a baggie pair of overalls i can tell
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you i did not look like the ideal
you i did not look like the ideal
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candidate to get a pilot's license i'm
candidate to get a pilot's license i'm
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holding under the counter because I
holding under the counter because I
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can't stand I said home here for a
can't stand I said home here for a
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flying lesson and they took one look and
flying lesson and they took one look and
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ran out the back to draw short straws
ran out the back to draw short straws
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you get hurt no no you take her finally
you get hurt no no you take her finally
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this guy comes out because hi I'm Andrew
this guy comes out because hi I'm Andrew
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and I'm gonna take you flying I go great
and I'm gonna take you flying I go great
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so they drive me down they get me out on
so they drive me down they get me out on
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the tarmac and there was this red white
the tarmac and there was this red white
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and blue airplane it was beautiful they
and blue airplane it was beautiful they
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lifted me into the cockpit they had to
lifted me into the cockpit they had to
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slide me up on the wing put me in the
slide me up on the wing put me in the
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cockpit they sat me down there are
cockpit they sat me down there are
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buttons and dials everywhere I'm going
buttons and dials everywhere I'm going
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Wow and he ever know what all these
Wow and he ever know what all these
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buttons and dials do Andrew the
buttons and dials do Andrew the
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instructor got in the front started the
instructor got in the front started the
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airplane up he said would you like to
airplane up he said would you like to
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have a go at taxing that's when you use
have a go at taxing that's when you use
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your feet to control the rudder pedals
your feet to control the rudder pedals
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to control the airplane on the ground I
to control the airplane on the ground I
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said no I can't use my legs he went oh I
said no I can't use my legs he went oh I
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said but I can use my hands and he said
said but I can use my hands and he said
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okay so he got over to the runway and
okay so he got over to the runway and
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applied the power and as we took off
applied the power and as we took off
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down the runway when the wheels lifted
down the runway when the wheels lifted
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up off the tarmac can we became airborne
up off the tarmac can we became airborne
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I had the most incredible sense of
I had the most incredible sense of
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freedom and Andrew said to me as we got
freedom and Andrew said to me as we got
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over the training area you see that
over the training area you see that
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mountain over there and I said yeah and
mountain over there and I said yeah and
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he said will you take the controls and
he said will you take the controls and
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you fly towards that mountain and as I
you fly towards that mountain and as I
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looked up I realize that he was pointing
looked up I realize that he was pointing
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towards the Blue Mountains whether
towards the Blue Mountains whether
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journey had begun and I took the
journey had begun and I took the
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controls and I was flying and I was a
controls and I was flying and I was a
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long long way from that spinal Ward and
long long way from that spinal Ward and
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I knew right then that I was going to be
I knew right then that I was going to be
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a pilot didn't know how I'd earth I'd
a pilot didn't know how I'd earth I'd
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ever pass a medical
ever pass a medical
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but I worry about that later cuz right
but I worry about that later cuz right
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now I had a dream so I went home I got a
now I had a dream so I went home I got a
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training diarrhea and I had a plan and I
training diarrhea and I had a plan and I
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practice my walking as much as i could
practice my walking as much as i could
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and i went from the point of like two
and i went from the point of like two
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people holding me up to one person
people holding me up to one person
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holding me up the point i could walk
holding me up the point i could walk
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around the furniture as long as it
around the furniture as long as it
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wasn't too far apart and then i made
wasn't too far apart and then i made
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great progression to the point where i
great progression to the point where i
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could walk around the house holding onto
could walk around the house holding onto
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the walls like this and mum said she was
the walls like this and mum said she was
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forever following me wiping off my
forever following me wiping off my
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fingerprints but at least she always
fingerprints but at least she always
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knew where I was so while the doctors
knew where I was so while the doctors
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continued to operate and put my body
continued to operate and put my body
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back together again I went on with my
back together again I went on with my
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theory study and then eventually and
theory study and then eventually and
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amazingly I had passed my pilot's
amazingly I had passed my pilot's
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medical and that was my green light to
medical and that was my green light to
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fly and I spent every moment I could out
fly and I spent every moment I could out
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at that flying school way out of my
at that flying school way out of my
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comfort zone all these young guys that
comfort zone all these young guys that
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wanted to be Qantas pilots you know and
wanted to be Qantas pilots you know and
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little old Hopalong me in first my
little old Hopalong me in first my
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plaster cast and then my steel brace my
plaster cast and then my steel brace my
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baggy overalls my bag of medication and
baggy overalls my bag of medication and
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catheters and my limp and they used to
catheters and my limp and they used to
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look at me and think oh who is she
look at me and think oh who is she
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kidding she's never going to be able to
kidding she's never going to be able to
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do this and sometimes I thought that too
do this and sometimes I thought that too
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but that didn't matter because now there
but that didn't matter because now there
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was something inside that burned that
was something inside that burned that
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far outweigh my injuries and little
far outweigh my injuries and little
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goals kept me going along the way and
goals kept me going along the way and
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eventually I got my private pilot's
eventually I got my private pilot's
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license and then I learned to navigate
license and then I learned to navigate
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and I flew my friends around Australia
and I flew my friends around Australia
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and then I learned to fly an airplane
and then I learned to fly an airplane
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with two engines and I got my twin
with two engines and I got my twin
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engine rating and then I learned to fly
engine rating and then I learned to fly
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in bad weather as well as fine weather
in bad weather as well as fine weather
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and got my instrument rating and then I
and got my instrument rating and then I
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got my commercial pilot's license and
got my commercial pilot's license and
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then I got my instructor eating and then
then I got my instructor eating and then
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I found myself back at that same school
I found myself back at that same school
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where I'd gone for that very first
where I'd gone for that very first
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flight teaching other people how to fly
flight teaching other people how to fly
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just under 18 months after I'd left the
just under 18 months after I'd left the
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and then I thought why stop there why
and then I thought why stop there why
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not learn to fly upside down and I did
not learn to fly upside down and I did
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and I learned to fly upside down and
and I learned to fly upside down and
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became an aerobatic flying instructor
became an aerobatic flying instructor
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but then I knew for certain but although
but then I knew for certain but although
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my body might be limited it was my
my body might be limited it was my
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spirit that was unstoppable the
spirit that was unstoppable the
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philosopher Lao Tzu once said when you
philosopher Lao Tzu once said when you
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let go of what you are you become what
let go of what you are you become what
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you might be I now know that it wasn't
you might be I now know that it wasn't
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till I let go of who I thought I was
till I let go of who I thought I was
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that I was able to create a completely
that I was able to create a completely
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new life it was until I let go of the
new life it was until I let go of the
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life I thought I should have that I was
life I thought I should have that I was
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able to embrace the life that was
able to embrace the life that was
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waiting for me I now know that my real
waiting for me I now know that my real
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strength never came from my body and
strength never came from my body and
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although my physical capabilities have
although my physical capabilities have
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changed dramatically Who I am is
changed dramatically Who I am is
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unchanged the pilot light inside of me
unchanged the pilot light inside of me
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was still a light just as it is in each
was still a light just as it is in each
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and every one of us I know that I'm not
and every one of us I know that I'm not
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my body and I also know that you're not
my body and I also know that you're not
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yours and then it no longer matters what
yours and then it no longer matters what
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you look like where you come from or
you look like where you come from or
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what you do for a living all that
what you do for a living all that
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matters is that we continue to fan the
matters is that we continue to fan the
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flame of humanity by living our lives as
flame of humanity by living our lives as
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the ultimate creative expression of who
the ultimate creative expression of who
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we really are because we are all
we really are because we are all
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connected by millions and millions of
connected by millions and millions of
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straws and it's time to join those up
straws and it's time to join those up
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and to hang on and if we are to move
and to hang on and if we are to move
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towards our collective bliss it's time
towards our collective bliss it's time
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we shed our focus on the physical and
we shed our focus on the physical and
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instead embrace the virtues of the heart
instead embrace the virtues of the heart
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so raise your straws if you'll join me
so raise your straws if you'll join me
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Janine Shepherd, body, body, politics, Olympic medalist, TED, TEDx, TED-Ed, TEDEducation, TED, Ed
